Musings from My Middle Age

I am starting this by wishing you all a happy New Year.   I hope the Holidays found you all happy and healthy and found time to reflect on all that made your life full and complete in 2025.   Last year the Holidays were hard.   I think I may have written about it, to be honest I frankly don’t remember.    I know there were a lot of tears and and feeling a big hole in how much we missed Big Daddy.   It was hard. This year was different.   I approached it with a little more hop

May 25, 2025   Hi there Big Daddy. It’s been over a year.   One year, 2 months, and 6 days to be exact.   That long since you left us.  ...

Yesterday was a first for me.  A first last.   That may sound weird, but I’ve been thinking a lot about them lately.    Yesterday marked...

2024, I’d like to say it was a good one, but honestly, I can’t wait to see you go. It started out great.   Ringing in the new year with...

Tomorrow it’s been six months since Jason died.  Six. Months. In some moments it seems like a million years have passed, and in another I...

Grief is stupid. It’s been almost five months since My world exploded.   Five months since that day where the life I had ended, and this...

I still have your laundry.   It’s sitting in my closet. Just a basket.   Full of the things you wore before you were gone.   And they...

I hate mowing the lawn. Today when I was mowing I was hot, and my feet hurt, and there were sticks everywhere and I was angry.   I found...

I never imagined that I would wake up 14 days ago and become a widow. This wasn’t the plan.   We had a life.   We laughed that morning.  ...

I’m sure lots of you have heard about the tragedy that happened yesterday at the Kansas City Chief’s Victory Rally.   They are estimating...

I don’t know what this means exactly, but I know that I don’t want to take anything for granted.   I’ve seen too many things come and go...

I have been thinking a lot about memories lately.   My memories.   My children’s memories.   My Family memories. I don’t know if it’s...

Once in a while, little things from the past show up to remind you of lessons you have learned in life and what might really be important...

The leaves have started changing here. It’s really one of my favorite times of the year. I look forward to it every year. I love...

Mortality is a thing I don’t like to talk about. None of us do. Beginnings are much more fun. Birth. It’s joyous. Beginnings are...

I’ve been all caught up in my feels this weekend. You see my youngest, my boy, he graduated from high school. My baby is moving on to...

I love to look back on all the great memories of my children. Of the funny things that they said or did, or the times they LITERALLY...

I have this recurring dream. I call it my stress dream, and it’s usually a signal to when I have something going on in my life that it...

I was listening to a podcast the other day, it’s called “We Can Do Hard Things” by Glennon Doyle. She was talking about how she had a...

I feel like I have been living in the movie Groundhog Day. You know the one where the day just repeats itself over and over and over...